Why is it still you?
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Why is it that I never am able to be content with my self, always being so insecure. I already don’t feel pretty or attractive to begin with so when people say “oh if you take off your glasses and don’t put your hair up you would be so pretty” like wtf thanks for basically calling me ugly and making me feel like crap. Like obviously I don’t try to get dressed for school because I’m lazy and idgaf, but it still hurts because it’s like damn… I already don’t think so highly of myself you saying that just makes it worse. I know I’m not suppose to care what people think but this has been a struggle that I have always had to deal with and it still really does hurt…
:/ always I forgive….
At the end of the day what I want is the same…
Ever been in a position that you have no idea what’s going on…. The only thing you do know is that it’s not going to end well, “words tend to get thrown around likely like like like like LOVE” common sense tells you to stop it now, stop going on with a lie. But conscious and guilt says keep pushing through it, it will be better later, nothing would really change. I do like him but love….. no. Do I see us together in the future…….. no. End of the year is coming up and honestly I can’t let it go passed that… Idk I have SO many mixed feelings smh.
Quick bitch.
2 things that sets me over the edge and that can kill my mood and put me in the pushiest mood like I am right now.
1. Don’t ask me for my opinion and get fucking mad a t me because it is not the same as yours. Like wtf really bitch? Sthu
2. This is the third time this has happened, don’t try and control me, blowing my phone up just cause I don’t answer a couple times, I do have a life and things to do. Don’t tell me I have to ask for your permission to hang out with certain people like nigga foreal and you are? IDGAF who you are unless you are my mon, aunt, it dad, if it’s not one of them I’m straight up NOT listening to your bitchass. I already have too many people telling me what to do. Your help is not needed or wanted.



